El error no está en que lo que se haga sea dañino para nadie. Hay que comprender lo incomprensible. Hay que saber cuándo es necesario no intentarlo más. A esto se lo llama “dejar de insistir”. En una pintada dice: “La resignación es un suicido cotidiano”. ¿Es dejar de insistir resignarse? ¿Por qué tengo siempre la sensación de que me estoy jugando la vida?
The mistake is not that one is doing something which harms anybody. What needs to be done is to understand what it is impossible to understand. One must know when it is necessary to stop trying. This is called “to stop insisting”. A grafitti says: “Resignation is committing suicide each and every day”. Is to stop insisting resignation? Why do I always get feeling that I’m risking my life?
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Hi Michelle. Funny enough, I find myself in exactly the same dilemna. Having painted for twenty years by now and feeling that I’m getting nowhere, except the hands and the mercy of a receiver…. So go on blindly “against all odds” and no being able to provide for my familly? Or get a stupid job (the only ones I could get after twenty years od freedom…) which would help me clear the debts… That means stop creating, that’s for sure…
My psy is on a working trip to the states, and in his absence I took the decision to go sideways: I moved my studio to a community arts cooperative. It’s maybee avoiding to take the decisive decision… Or it might be the way to go: working with others, being challenged, get out of the comfort zone…
Wow. I think that’s a good idea!
I’ve never been able to earn a living with artistic activity or with activism. But I think I always wanted that separate, clearly separate from my activities to earn a living. But of course, this means that the time you get (and the concentration you get) for your artistic activity and activism is just bits here and there, and that’s not, for instance, what your kind of painting work requires. I also think that if I had had more time, my artistic work would be much better, and I always get the feeling that it is so imperfect, so unpredictable and all.
For me, in terms of more personal artistic work, I became a writer, so to call it, because you can write anywhere any time, it’s so cheap, and writing seems to be more compatible with ordinary life, so that allowed me to get a job to earn a living. But it’s always suffocating, and as time goes by, I need more and more freedom, not less! 😀 So I’m thinking of setting up my own little school, not like a school, like a language school. Work a few months and then get time for my stuff.
How good it’d be if we had “mecenas” like in the past, right? Or winning the lottery! 😀